WARNING!!! Artistic melodrama below!!! WARNING!!!  

  Lately I've been unknowingly punishing myself.  In turn by giving myself this harsh treatment I haven't been as happy as I could have been.  Therefore I apologize like seeming like a total hard-ass for the past month or so.  

  My problems (only few out of the many, I assure you) really begin with my desires to be a great artist and more importantly not a failure in this society.  So I kept pushing, and pushing myself for the wrong reasons.  To not misunderstand me, I believe a strong work ethic is a very good thing, and I really feel that one I've molded for myself over the past two years happens to be a strong one.  However, to be motivated for the wrong reasons will, in my opinion, lead to only shallow achievements and never allow a person to appreciate the true beauty of their own work.  That's what I had been doing to myself, and the reason I had been unknowingly doing so is because I hadn't given myself enough faith.  

  Having faith in one's self is to believe that in the end, one's existence will be worth something.  I doubted myself in this area and it affected my life slightly, yet enough to really piss me off.  The main reason I feel some regret is that all the times I was hanging out with my friends or participating in my favorite pass times I always had the mentality that it was a chore that stole me away from my all-so-important art work.  For this act of insincerity I apologize to all of those that I may have affected.  Now that I feel this way I believe it is time for me to just relax a little and embrace some more free time activities for pleasures and blessings that they really are…

Love, Peace, and Happy Lil' Dances.  
-HoHo